Sebenarnya postingan ini berisi repost dari tweets saya setahun yang lalu. Waktu itu saya sedang nggak bisa tidur dan somehow kepikiran tentang generasi saya, gen y. Waktu itu saya lagi sering-seringnya nemu artikel tentang Gen Y. Generasi yang lahir di tahun 1980s – 1990s. Banyak banget artikel yang bahas tentang betapa berbedanya Gen Y ini dibandingin sama generasi sebelumnya. Ada beberapa hal positif dan nggak ketinggalan segudang hal negatif mengenai generasi ini. Karena di twitter susah nyarinya lagi akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk nulis ulang di blog ini. Continue reading
Was the thing that popped-up in my mind last night when I was walking down the street alone. It is kind of weird that there was no cab passed by the street last night and how dark and quiet it was. I actually didn’t know what I have to do except crankily walk down. It was 1 a.m, I was afraid, tired and brought lots of stuffs with me and I had to walk this far.
But thanks to last night that finally I thought, “If only I have another option but not to walk. But I don’t”.
I stopped for a moment and thought again, “I have no option and I keep walking. What if I give up? I would just stay here without knowing when will the cab pass. I would probably stood here alone waiting for something that’s not even certain. I don’t know what would happen if I stay and give up walking but if I walk at least I know I walk to the right direction.”
Sometimes, we think that we have no other option but life always provides us with options. And one of the common options is: “to give up” or “not to give up”. Unconsciously, some of us (or maybe most of us) choose “to give up”. And as matter a fact, we don’t even know which option is “to give up” and which one is “not to give up”.
In my simple case for example, I didn’t know what option lead me to “give up”. Did I give up when I finally decided to walk? (means I decided to give up waiting) Or, did I give up if I decided to wait for the cab? (means I decided to give up walking).
“To give up” and “Not to give up” is such a blurry choice. It actually depends on what is exactly our destination? What is actually our goal? If you choose something that seems like giving up but conversely, it leads you to your destination, then you are not giving up.
My simple case for example, my destination is to get on bed as fast as I can and cuddling up with my sister. If I decided to wait for the cab maybe my sister would already sleep and I wouldn’t be hugged in my sleep when I get there. But I decided to walk and get there faster so my sister was still awake and she could hug me until I slept. Seems like I was giving up waiting the cab but it leads my to my destination. I didn’t give up.
I’m sure you know that once you choose “not to give up” it might not smooth. Obstacles are there, tiresome is your consequence, but knowing you will reach your destiny, isn’t that wonderful?
As a human, I can’t deny that choosing “to give up” is one of the easiest thing to do. But I learned if I choose “to give up” I will just go nowhere, not even closer to my destination, and got no strength to go back to start and anyway we don’t have that “rewind” button in our life so how could we go back to start again? Then the only option is “to move on”. And “to move on” is not giving up. It is walking on different street to reach a better destination.
Before I join my company I am now in, I was an announcer in a top radio station in town but for one and other things I must leave the radio and work in a company. It wasn’t an easy option: “to give up” the thing I love to do (radio) or “not to give up”? I finally decided to leave the radio. Did I give up? No, I didn’t. I didn’t easily give up and act like I don’t like radio at all. But I nourished my goal. I love radio so much! But I don’t want to be an announcer for the rest of my life. I want to pursue a great career, saving money and build my own radio. It might seems that I gave up what I love, but as matter a fact I wasn’t not giving up what I love, I try to move on from my comfort zone and pursuing a bigger thing.
Do you know what that means? “To give up” is never been the final option. “To give up” is not permanent. Because we are human, this is life. Life goes on, human will die someday. And no one, not even an elder, want to stuck in something that is not certain. By not giving up, we are pursuing something we believe we could reach. Simply, if you work on something to pursue your goal, you are not in a state of giving up. You might giving up your comfort zone, you might be tired, you might need a break, but you don’t need to give up.
These two days I attended marketing workshop. The workshop was kinda fun and full of tough discussion between global, regional, and country management. But, I actually won’t share anything about the workshop because I am a stingy person. I won’t let you get the same lesson! Hahaha. No, just kidding. I am not good at re-explaining things I’ve learned. But feel free to ask if you want.
What I am about to write here is just a little part of the workshop. Since the workshop was attended by global, regional, and country management, we had this introduction session to get to know each other. But the introduction was kind of different than any other introduction I had ever done. One week before the workshop, all participants accepted an email attached with some pre-work to do. One of the pre-work instructed us to bring one object which have some significance with us. That was just a simple task to do. Bring an object. But that was kind of difficult for me.
I did not know what I have to bring until the one day before workshop. I really have no idea. I thought about bringing fish because I am Pisces so fish means something for me but I could not find fish. I thought about bringing my macbook because my macbook has been “my significant other” for 4 years but it does not explain me too much it only explain that I love apple. Then I remembered about my diary! Ah damn! I did not bring my diary to Jakarta! But wait, I got an idea. What about pen?
So I chose to bring pen to the workshop. I prepared nothing. The only thing I prepared was only the pen and a book to jot down some note. I did not prepared any sweet or philosophical words to explain about the object I brought because I was pretty confident that I would not be the “lucky number one” in introduction session. So, I will steal some other sayings to beautify my introduction.
But, fate said otherwise. God really knew my bad motive to steal others’ words. No one wanted to be the lucky-number-one and somehow, every body in the room had agreed that I was the one who should start the introduction session. Well, I am a brave girl so I stood up with nothing to say except “Good morning, guys! My name is Ajeng and the object I bring today is a pen…” and the rest of my introduction was something that I could not believe came out from my mouth…
“Good morning, guys! My name is Ajeng and the object I bring today is a pen. I chose pen because I am not an expressive person. I cannot express my self well by talking or acting but once I do writing I feel like I can express every single thing in my mind, and every single thing that I feel. But maybe some of you questioning, ‘Hellooo, Jeng! It’s 2012 and you still use pen and paper? We’ve got computers and laptops!’ Yes you are right. But there is something computers cannot give. It is the emotion. If I read my old diary I will know exactly my emotion at that time from the size of the font, and the shape of my hand writing. It clearly describes what really happened back then. Computers? We won’t bother ourselves increasing and decreasing the font size and font face just to show the emotion in microsoft word. Ah, and there is something I really love about pen. If we type in our computer and we do some mistakes we can easily press backspace button and the mistakes we made was entirely vanished. But if we write with pen and we made some mistakes, no matter how hard we try to cover up the mistakes even with tip-ex, the scratch will stay there, reminding us that we made some mistakes so we can learn not to do the same mistake or more mistakes in the future. That’s all. Thank you very much.”
Beyond my own expectation, everyone in room gave me big applause. The global brand manager said, “We chose the right person to start the introduction! It’s beyond my expectation.” and the marketing regional manager said, “Ajeng, I can’t believe what I hear. A very nice saying about pen from you.”
I smiled and thanked for the compliment but then I thought, “what did i say????? Am I that inspiring?” And the answer is: “Yes, I am inspiring!” Hahaha, are you going to slap me now because now you realize this post is just me praising myself? Close the tab now. Close it now. Hahaha. Just leaving a trace in my own blog, fellas. And yes, I think I will not be able to make such a nice introduction like what I said in the workshop so, I typed it in my own blog so someday I can remember about this. Hahaha. Ciaaaooo!!!!
Heiya, tumblrina! Today I’m going to write something with my full ‘otoyness’! Sebenarnya saya nggak tau apa-apa tentang anorexic (males juga googlingnya da ga butuh-butuh amat). Yang saya tau anoreksia itu merupakan mindset yang berpikir kalo kuruuuuss itu bagus. Semakin kurus semakin bagus, semakin cantik. Pokoknya ga boleh ada lemaak di badan, deh! Hal lain yang saya tau tentang anoreksia adalah, beberapa temen saya di angkatan 2008 manggil saya anorexic (teman-teman antagonis).
OK, jadi bermula dari temen-temen saya (yang saya sebut di atas) yang sering ngatain saya anorexic, saya sempet mikir juga sih, apa jangan-jangan saya beneran anorexic? Saya coba bertanya-tanya ke diri saya sendiri, “kurus tuh bagus gak sih, jeng? kurus yang kerempeng gitu! bahenol sama kurus bagusan mana?” dan pertanyaan-pertanyaan lainnya untuk ngetes mindset saya tentang apakah kurus itu bagus atau nggak. Dan saya nggak bisa memungkiri bahwa yaaa kurus itu bagus sih, tapi ga kerempeng juga.
Nah lho! Apa jangan-jangan saya anorexic?
Well, setelah saya pikir ulang, saya menemukan teori ini (cailah!). Saya dulu gendut (gendut banget bahkan). Bukan berarti saya sekarang kurus, tapi dibanding pas lulus SMA dan awal masuk kuliah saya bisa bilang saya kurusan lah ya. Nah, kalo anorexic yang mau saya bahas sekarang ini adalah anorexic yang mungkin aja terjadi karena dulu pernah gendut.
Waktu saya gendut dulu, saya ngerasa pake baju apa aja jelek ntah karena lengan saya yang gede berlemak, perut buncit berlemak, paha tumpah berlemak, dagu berlipat dua, dan hal-hal lainnya. Pake baju kecilan dikit langsung terlihat seperti buntelan lemak. Belum lagi kalo saya mau beli celana, ribet banget! Harus selalu nanya ke mbak SPGnya, “mbak yang paling gede ada?” pas dicobain di fitting room, tet-tot ga cukup! Begitu saya ‘kehilangan’ beberapa kilogram, saya merasa pas pake baju saya agak keliatan bagusan dikit dan cari celana ga sesusah dulu lagi (walaupun tetep minta ukuran paling gede, tapi tetep aja ga pulang dengan tangan hampa karena celananya ga cukup).
Dari situlah saya merasa bahwa kurus itu bagus kok. Bagus dalam artian nggak susah nyari celana kali ya dan mungkin ngerasa lebih percaya diri juga karena nggak ada lemak-lemak bergelimpangan di bagian-bagian yang pasti keliatan (seperti perut, lengan dan paha).
Hal yang saya sebut di atas itulah mungkin yang mendorong orang-orang yang pernah merasakan punya badan besar merasa kalo kurus itu bagus. Makanya orang-orang yang dulu besar ini jadi semangat banget ngurusin badannya (termasuk melakukan diet-diet ketat yang nggak sesuai sama anjuran dokter yang malah akhirnya berujung di rumah sakit karena kekurangan nutrisi, poor you anyway). Pasti ada yang terlintas di pikiran mereka bahwa: “gue kurusan dikit aja udah keliatan bagusan, kalo gue tambah kurus lagi pasti gue keliatan semakin bagus, wah, gue harus kurus banget nih biar gue keliatan oke banget!”. Ya, yang namanya manusia kan ga pernah puas ya. Ngeliat dirinya kelihatan mirror-friendly dikit aja pasti pengennya lebih, bener nggak?
To be honest, saya juga pernah kok punya pikiran kaya gitu. Tapi, terimakasih untuk instruktur pilates saya, Teh Yeti yang menekankan bahwa badan saya udah pas kok, tinggal dikencengin (biar ga ada gelambir-gelambir bekas gendut) dan dibentuk aja sehingga saya nggak keterusan punya pikiran kalo saya harus lebih kurus lagi.
Jadi intinya, kalo menurut saya nih ya, kamu yang pernah merasakan punya badan gendut (atau besar atau gembrot atau apapun itu cara kamu menyebutnya), tanpa kamu sadari mungkin aja lho pikiran kita sudah ternodai (aiih) dengan mindset bahwa kurus itu bagus apalagi kalo kamu ngebandingin foto kamu yang dulu dan yang sekarang tapi, mbok ya jangan sampe ekstrim banget pengen kurusnya. Kalau emang masih merasa badan kamu kegendutan, coba deh kamu olah raga di gym terdekat siapa tau itu bukan gendut melainkan tinggal dibentuk aja biar tambah bagus. Boleh kok kalian olah raga dengan niat untuk menurunkan beberapa kilogram berat badan kamu tapi jangan lupa nanya ke instruktur di tempat gym, “badan saya udah ideal belom sih?” dia pasti mau jawab kok. Diet juga boleh selama dengan pengawasan dokter gizi atau orang-orang yang memang ngerti masalah diet dan ngerti ukuran obesitas, normal, dan terlalu kurus itu segimana. Jangan sampai malah jadi kekurusan dan kekurangan nutrisi juga ya. Dan, above all, percaya deh, cantik itu nggak harus kurus kok sebenernya. Itu semua kembali ke diri kamu sendiri, kamu percaya diri nggak sama apa yang kamu punya? Kalo kamu ngerasa PD sama apa yang kamu punya, pasti kecantikan kamu memancar dengan sendirinya kok tanpa peduli apakah kamu gendut atau kurus.
Inget kata Katy Perry: “There’s a spark in you, you just gotta ignite the light and let it shine. Just own the night like the 4th of July. Cause baby, you’re a firework. Come and show ‘em what you worth!” ^_^