icanread:

(by miks)

i really want to write lotta things about yesterday.. my last day with the Koreans (and that means, the last day with Shin Dae Youb). But seems like I’d never write it.

I lost my ability to write. I can’t even explain what I feel rite now.

I was crying last nite. But, now I can’t cry. There’re 2 sides in my body now. The first side is the “i’m OK” side. And another one is the “damn! I’m so fucked up! i can’t even do anything! can’t think clearly, I can’t even do the easiest thing to do: cry! argh!” side.